~ Stress?? Tension?? Tertekan?? ~

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What should I do?.....Every time I met a doctor..he always scolded at me.... And me....how can I manage my stress and tension.... Because of this my health always problems....

What's a good when I'm stress.. My stomach will hurting badly... I will have vomitted too...the worst is I can falling fainted if it's too bad.... Yesterday was a bad birthday day... Celebrate at hospital because I already fainted and my low blood problems.....when doctor check all about me.. What surprise? My weight.... I lost 5 kg in 1 week.. Suppose I'm happy with this?..... But I got a warning, If this continue happen ella...you will be in problems....

Doc said :Their ella, please manage your personal problems or works problem properly... Don't make it until it will effect your health....if you have a problems, find someone who can be your ear,sharing with you... Don't kept everything in your heart alone... This will effect you ella...

Said : I wish I could be that doctor... I wish I can be strong......Allah always with me........

~ terima kasih :'( ~

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Happy birthday and sanah helwah ella ..you are 24 y/o already..... Yup,yesterday was my birthday 25/02/2014....like every year nothing special about that day..... Plus this year more sadness for me... I have been forgotten from others/friends/family... No one remember that day :'(....

While I'm be waiting someone special... His missing with his self... I couldn't know anything about him.... This is more sadness to me.... Wishing u will be here... Wishing u will remember of me my birthday.... Why? Why I'm so worried about you.... Just now, I open our group whatapp,I feeling so hurting while I'm seeing that u left that group...

Dear Awak? It's gonna be happened again?..... I'm too scared to think about that... Ya Allah ko berilah kekuatan kepadanya untuk hadapi segala rintangan mahupun kesusahan...bukalah pintu hatinya selalu untuk insan yang sentiasa menyayanginya..... jika INI adalah ujian darimu untukku... Daku redha Ya Allah, sesungguhnya kebahagiaanku adalah milikmu.... Terima kasih atas kebahagiaan ini....

~ bukan marah mahupun benci... cuma??~

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Silent quite... Itu lah kata-kata yang mampu saya katakan.... Difficult to understand me hah??...... Mungkin saya complicated orangnya... Cuma saya mampu katakan, hanya orang yang mengenali saya akan mengetahui how simple I am....btw bukan puji diri sendiri.... Hehehe

Well, it's ella lau was mad??angry??hated??....ermmmm...wish u....first, don't judge people even by their acting... Sometime they got their own reason when they acting so and so.... Back to me?... If I can choose being mad?being angry? Being hated? Being saddy?Being hurting?.....

I choose to being silent,being quite, being forgiveness,being forgetting....can I??for me is simple, even though I'm not such a good person, a strong person.. Doesn't matter.. As long as for me, when I have uncomfortable feelings I'm trying to cool as I can.....because I'm just hoping to give happiness to person around me even sometimes sacrifice will take place.. Doesn't matter, as long for them :)..yup I also was a stubborn person, even they don't care about me, I will care about them.."the more we care the more we get hurting?"but I still to choose it......just sometime doing nothing doesn't means do not know anything....

Said: the path we get through is Allah given... But the way through our path is our chosen...

~ simple wishes ;) ~

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LWL.....February will pass and march around the corner.... Cepat betul masa berlalu...Pejam celik day hampir 3 bulan tahun 2014....if cerita Pasal tahun nie.. Saya rasa a lot of things gonna be happen.. May be this year will be sadness year or maybe being a greatest happiness year...who's know??......we didn't know what will be happen tomorrow or in the future...

People change?... Yup,times will go.. Means we will become old time by times... So do I...maybe before this I was a teenagers that's always happy go lucky...nothing to think... For me life is simple just enjoy... Can I say that again? Its hard for me.... Times? Masa?.... Yup dalam masa Yang singkat macam2 boleh jadi... Sama ada baik or buruk.... Masa?? Masa juga akan mendewasakan dan mematangkan kita... matured??.....

Matured?? This was a scary word for me before....because a lot of thing I need to think...even I don't want too.... Sometimes I just miss a moment while I'm acting just innocence girls... That happy just do what I want.. That have a big spirit,confidence, Patience, strong character... But while times go.... A lot of me, also gone.... The most precious is my spirit.... I'm just afraid I will lost a part of me myself...because I'm also change.... How about my united friendship spirit?

Times by times... My spirit was reduce little bit....day by day, I feel missing it a little and little.... Then I'm just afraid one day i will lost that spirit soon....it's hard because for me it's part of my ownself.... Should I throw it?..... Simple wish? I just hope people that I love most more be always happy health with their life...I wish I will always have strength for stand with people I'm love and care so much.... Even I'm not be around anymore.....

P/s : appreciate people around you... Give and take all love for them...while they still in this world... People don't know about tomorrow but at least prepare before its too late...nothing can change and you will regret in future....

~ Dugaan hebat..aku semakin rapuh ~

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Perkongsian yang sangat berat daripada diriku...saat ini daku merasakan terlalu hinanya diri ini..terlalu kerdil di mata manusia mahupun di matanya...Ya Allah,apakah ini dugaan untuk hambamu...Jika benar ini dugaan daripadamu,berilah kekuatan pada hambamu ini... Saat ini daku terlalu lemah, merasakan semangat diri kian goyah... Saat ini, daku hanya ingin menyendiri, membawa diri.. Bukan bermaksud daku berputus asa mahupun membenci apatah lagi melarikan diri.... Cuma daku inginkan masa untuk mencari balik semangat yang kian hilang....

"Sometimes I need a shoulder to cry with, I need an ears to hearing me"....while that happen I know Allah is the right one but I'm just a normal human being... Need a small care and love just to give me spirit to stand along ..someone give me this word "appreciate people around you, that's always care and love you....don't regret while they already gone not around this world anymore because we never know if tomorrow we still have a time to life"....just to let people that I love and care most" I'm happy to have you all, thanks for everything during times being.. All memory will always inside a deep my heart..I never mad or angry to anyone related because my love is more big then everything...the priceless ever for me is forgiven... Just be happy and enjoy your all life guys.. "LWL...